Day 5 - Liquid Diet

My esophago-gastro-duodenoscopy (EGD) went well on Tuesday. I don't remember it so as far as I am concerned everything went as planned. :-) They had to remove a polyp from my esophagus and they sent it off to the lab to be checked. The doctor said that they usually aren't any problem but I can get the results in another week. They also discovered that I have a hietal hernia. Its not really a big deal as far as the surgery goes. He said that if the surgeon thinks it will be a problem he will just fix it while he is in there.


As I am drinking the last of my protein shake for the day, I'm thinking that the next 8 days are going to be very long. I miss food. It seems like everything is a reminder of what I won't be able to have for weeks to come. Driving down the road, on my way to meet with my assistants, I drive by dozens of fast food places and convenience stores advertising yummy things to eat. While watching TV with my husband, it seems like every commercial is for food and every show we watch seems to be about food. While playing on Facebook, I play games like Cafe World and Restaurant City. Games like Farmville and Frontierville and base most of the playing around food. Planting food, harvesting food, collecting food, eating food to gain more energy. FOOD. FOOD. Food is everywhere.

Today, I was going through the binder that I was given at the Bariatric center when I first started this process and noticed that I had misremembered the amount of protein I am supposed to be eating so I have to find a way to get in another 20g of protein every day. I broke down and bought some Super Whey Protein shots. Also, my husband just reminded me that we have some Isopure Zero Carb waters left as well.

I think I will have to start trying to get some of these fruity flavored drinks in as well because I can't imagine having to drink another protein shake. Having to drink 3 every day is already a challenge. Its not that I am too full to drink them but I am just so bored with them. If I could having anything right now it would probably be a bacon cheese burger with lettuce and tomato and fries on the side and a big slice of turtle cheesecake to top it all off. Hmmmm. Sounds heavenly. :-) To bad its what got me into this trouble in the first place.

Since I have been on the liquid diet, I have been weighing myself every day. I was so sure that I would lose a whole bunch of weight this week because I am not consuming very many calories but apparently by body isn't ready to let go.

So, I gained 10 pounds during my week long farewell to desserts. The next week I got a surprise extra week of food because they changed my surgery date and although I didn't gain any weight, I didn't lose any either. Now I'm into my liquid diet and I've only lost 5 pounds. I haven't even gotten back to my starting weight yet. Ugh.

I have been reminding myself every day that this is why I am having the surgery. Weight loss shouldn't be this difficult. I know I am supposed to be happy to lose any weight but I guess that at this point I have been waiting so long for this that it seems like its not happening fast enough. Be patient, Amity. Be patient, Amity. Be patient, Amity. I'm trying. I'm trying. I'm trying.

So, the countdown really begins. Surgery is on August 2nd. Wow. That's a little over a week away. I am so excited!