Counting Down

Its been 10 days since I posted last and I figured it was time to write again. I really don't have much to post. I am still struggling with keeping things down. I have talked with the nutritionist at the bariatric center a few times and we've decided that the stress of trying to force food down is only making the problem worse. Stress and anxiety can cause my stomach to restrict and therefore it doesn't have room to fit any food. So, we decreased my protein goal in hopes that if I start reaching it regularly that maybe I can relax and get more in.

Over the last week I have hit my new protein goal 3 times. I think that is more than I have hit the goal since I had the surgery. It makes me feel like maybe things will get a little better. Right now I am drinking a lot of milk and that helps with both protein and liquids. I have also been getting in 1 or 2 "meals" of protein solids a day so things are going well.

Schools days are always too tough to get food in but I drink as much milk as I can and get a bunch of other liquids in throughout the day. This week I am going to try and get a "meal" in when I get home and see how that goes. Usually I just do all liquids on school days but I can't hit my goals like that. I'll give it a try and see how it goes.

The number on the scale still isn't moving like it needs to. I have only lost 2 pounds in the last 10 days. Still haven't hit my first big weight goal. Frustrating is not a big enough word to describe how I feel about that. The nutritionist says its because I am not getting enough calories. My body still thinks its starving to death and won't let go of anything. She recommended Sugar-Free Carnation Instant Breakfast packets. She thought that the added vitamins and calories would help jump start my weight loss but even just a few sips into a cup and I felt sick. The texture and taste wasn't good and apparently my stomach didn't like it either.

This week I got vitamins down a few times and hopefully this week i will be able to at least be able to get my multivitamin down and keep it down every day. I am not as worried about my calcium right now because of the large quantity of milk I am drinking right now. I gave myself my vitamin b shot today so I don't have to worry about that again for a month.

Well, I need to get back to homework. I have a bunch and I have school tomorrow.