I had absolutely no idea how hard being pregnant was going to be. I don't really mind the physical stuff. The nausea, frequent urination, constant exhaustion, trouble sleeping and all the other common pregnancy symptoms are a nice reminder to me that Im still pregnant. Its the mental stuff that is making it so difficult.
On Friday, I had no pregnancy symptoms. None on Saturday, Sunday or Monday. Its breaking me out. Im not even 9 weeks. These symptoms should be reassuring me for another month or so. Other women would be happy to be done with all that for awhile but I really needed it. I needed those constant reminders that my baby was still in there, alive and growing perfectly.
I don't have an appointment to see the doctor till January 14. Im trying.to just relax and look forward to hearing the baby's heart beat at that appointment. But Im so worried that something is wrong and we won't hear anything.
Im not sure I can handle waiting 4 weeks. I feel like Im on the verge of freaking out. Every little ache or pain or weird feeling has me wondering if its the end.
Im never getting pregnant again. No matter what happens this time, I just can't do it. I can't handle the constant roller coaster of emotions. Aaaah.
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