What was I thinking...

I had absolutely no idea how hard being pregnant was going to be. I don't really mind the physical stuff. The nausea, frequent urination, constant exhaustion, trouble sleeping and all the other common pregnancy symptoms are a nice reminder to me that Im still pregnant. Its the mental stuff that is making it so difficult.

On Friday, I had no pregnancy symptoms. None on Saturday, Sunday or Monday. Its breaking me out. Im not even 9 weeks. These symptoms should be reassuring me for another month or so. Other women would be happy to be done with all that for awhile but I really needed it. I needed those constant reminders that my baby was still in there, alive and growing perfectly.

I don't have an appointment to see the doctor till January 14. Im trying.to just relax and look forward to hearing the baby's heart beat at that appointment. But Im so worried that something is wrong and we won't hear anything.

Im not sure I can handle waiting 4 weeks. I feel like Im on the verge of freaking out. Every little ache or pain or weird feeling has me wondering if its the end.

Im never getting pregnant again. No matter what happens this time, I just can't do it. I can't handle the constant roller coaster of emotions. Aaaah.

Our Little Parasite

This morning's ultrasound was sooooo cool. This is the first time we've gotten far enough along to see a heart beat. We both got teary-eyed looking at it. It was so AMAZING! I can't wait till we can start to hear the heart beat at doctor's appointments.

I still don't have a due date but I hope to soon. The traditional way of calculating due dates puts me at 8 weeks but this weeks ultrasound puts me at 6 weeks 3 days. We'll see what the doctor says.

So, great big world, please meet Little Baby Watts, or as my husband so fondly nicknamed him/her, Our Little Parasite.

He/she is 6mm long and has a heart beat of 122 beats per minute. Yeah! For those of you without a degree in imaging, let me explain: The round ball at the top is actually not the baby's head. It is the yolk sac (yes, just like in chicken eggs). This will feed the baby for a little longer. The baby is actually just the part between the cross hairs. 6mm of miracle and growing bigger every day.

Anxiously Awaiting Monday

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I don't think I've ever been so excited about a Monday before. I know I've never been so excited about an early morning appointment on my day off. Tomorrow better get here soon.

Spotting stopped just about 24 hours ago. Woot! I've been feeling hungry every 2 hours and if I ignore it I get very nauseous. Strong smells, like mtg husbands bbq'd wings, also make me nauseous. Im needing a nap most days and am sleeping fairly well at night. Im completely medication free and only take my vitamins daily. Occasionally I have to take a Pepcid for a belly ache in my "other" stomach but no traditional heart burn.

Thirsty almost all the time and drinking 3or more 24oz cups of water flavored with a little cranberry juice. I also have tea or cocoa at least once a day. This, of course, is causing frequent trips to the ladies room. Other than a few odd looks from coworkers, I don't mind the constant need to pee. Finding myself craving meat quite a bit. LOVE meatballs. Making them homemade with a great meat blend. Eating them a few times a week! Did I mention that I love meatballs!

Not very healthy but craving breakfast sausage last night and this morning. Im going to indulge this craving by having sausage links wrapped in crescent rolls. Yums! But I'll try to watch what I eat later in the day. Craving sweets sometimes but mostly able to curb it with a handful of Mike & Ikes. Really loving the Red Rageous ones!

All in all things seem to be going well this time and I hope that means great news on Monday. Hopefully soon we will also have an official due date!

Thank you to everyone that has been so loving and supportive. It means so very much to us to have each and everyone of you in our lives. I know that someday our baby will love you too!